Taking it easy last week appears to have paid off. I got back to business tonight with a double-hit of yoga, beginning with a Yin class, then going into Goldie’s Vinyasa Flow class all nice and limber. Since our peak pose in the flow was Eka Pada Koundiyanasana I was a bit concerned at the beginning of class since we were doing poses like Lizard and Floating Pigeon in preparation (all of which require the knee to be bent outward in the precise way that was really hurting me for the past few weeks). I was happy to find, though, that I was okay. I felt a little bit of sensation, but nothing big. Admittedly, I was also being a lot smarter than I was a few weeks ago and being far more cautious and gentle than I was previously. Even this little taste of being sidelined was enough for me to see the light. It’s great to be back and felt amazing to get back in the flow. Home again.
Today was a bit of a bust. I took yesterday off completely–I just basically checked out and went off the grid in an effort to recoup and put as little stress on my knee/leg as possible. This week is going to be a light yoga week because: 1) I know I need to let up a little for the sake of aforementioned knee and 2) it’s pretty jam-packed–there’s just not a lot of time for yoga. So, basically, today and Friday are my two real yoga days this week.
Today the plan was to go to a relaxing Yin yoga class, followed up by flow with Goldie. We were about two poses into Yin, doing a very moderate, supported version of Upavistha Konasana (wide-angle seated forward bend).The pose was already gentle, but I was taking it extra easy so as not to over-stress my knee. A couple minutes into the pose and I felt this sensation that I can’t really describe, starting at my knee and running up and down my leg. It felt a little electric and not good. I immediately laid off altogether, and knew that there would certainly be no Vinysasa for me tonight, since the flow is certainly far more taxing on the knee than Yin.
I know I need to take it easy and everything will be fine. I know it’s not the end of the world. But I just feel so much better when I’m doing yoga, that it’s hard to give it a rest. I keep reminding myself that I’m looking at the long game here … and that requires that I’m smart and sensible now.
I have to say that, unfortunately, it was a steep decline from the beginning of today to the end. I was downright giddy about going to training from the moment I woke up this morning. Today just seemed like it would be a fun day: I had my teaching out of the way, so today I could just sort of relax, do some yoga, and hang out. Sounds good, right?
As I was getting ready to leave this morning I noticed that the ligaments (I think) on top of my right big toe hurt … a lot. To the point where I was walking a bit weird to compensate/stave off the pain. Upon realizing this I was kind of frustrated with myself. My right knee has been moody for a while now, but I’ve powered through it even though I know that’s not necessarily the smartest thing to do. I’ve been noticing that my right hip is getting a bit touchy, too. And now the toe. I know enough to realize that all of this is probably not an accident, but a result of compensating for the knee, and that I have nothing but my own bad decisions to show for it.
For whatever reason, a lot of people were late to class today. This never happens, and I have no idea why it did today–I think it was just generally one of “those” days. We started our morning practice (which was 2.5 hours, might I add). I began, raring to go, thinking, “Man, I feel energized today!” Almost as soon as I thought that, it’s as though I was tempting the fates. It became clear that this practice was essentially leading up to getting our leg over head. Which, of course, I absolutely cannot do with my knee how it is (I think part of the reason I got myself into this predicament in the first place is because I continued to do a couple of sequences involving this pose after it already started to hurt). In other words, I was all raring to go, and then I couldn’t even do a lot of the moves. Frustrating. Not to mention my toe started hurting, which inhibited me even more. By the end of the sequence I was actually getting a bit nonsensically angry. And then, during the final poses (which required two blocks to really stabalize) one of the kids who came in late grabbed one of my blocks … meaning that I couldn’t even do that damn pose because one block didn’t provide enough support.
It was just one of those days, you know? The problem was all mine. I just got frustrated and let it fester.
Then we had an afternoon practice so that the second teaching group could assist. Even though it was fairly basic, I could hardly even hold poses like Plank and Crescent Moon because my toe wasn’t having it. More frustration.
Something was just in the air today. Even my most cheerful TT friend was in the same sort of mood I was. To the point where we ended up postponing our dinner plans until later in the week because it seemed like a waste when we were both so moody.
Soooo … much as I don’t want to do it, I think I’m going to have to taper my yoga practice pretty significantly this week and try to keep it more to Yin-type classes. I’m not usually one to be injured/limited so it’s a bit hard for me to admit. But I also know I have to learn my limits or I’m just going to exacerbate the situation.
Back on TT break again until the weekend of July 27.