Teacher training starts up again this weekend, then we go into another ten-day stretch starting next Friday. I’m delighted about this because I felt myself slipping back into some old behavior patterns this week, so it’ll be good to be wrapped back into the environment that is teacher training. It is fascinating to see how yoga really does affect life in such noticeable and positive ways. I think it’s probably not a coincidence that a lot of these old behaviors came back during the first stretch where I was doing yoga less frequently due to rehabbing a bit.
To limber up for tomorrow, I did a Yin yoga and then Vinyasa with Relaxation class tonight. (My teacher sang during savasana during the latter class, which I’ve never had happen before–it was pretty amazing.) I don’t know how much of this is a reflection of my emotional and mental state right now, but I had a really, really difficult time balancing in freaking Tree pose tonight. I have no idea what that was all about, but it is certainly a bit disconcerting in terms of what my physical state might be this weekend. But, then again, tomorrow is a new day.
Part of my slip into old behavior patterns was that, for whatever reason, my ex has been stuck in my brain for the past couple of days. I have no idea where these pangs of missing came from, but it sucks. There have been several times where I’ve had to hold myself back from contacting him in the past 48 hours. As luck would have it, his doppelgänger (seriously, it was eerie) walked into the studio alongside me today. I walked into class and put my mat down in the one available spot, looked to my right and, wouldn’t you know it … Doppelgänger was set up right next to me. Which made the class not exactly the reprieve I was looking for. The upside, though, is that I stepped out of the studio and was greeted by the most beautiful rainbow stretched out over Boston. I figure that’s a good sign.
Despite the fact that I went to bed on the later side last night (because it was just too ridiculous that I hadn’t seen last Sunday’s episode of Mad Men yet and I had to resolve that) and was woken up intermittently by drunken shenanigans outside, I nonetheless hopped out of bed fresh as a spring daisy and excited about the day this morning. I don’t know if I’m actually getting used to getting up at 5:45 or if it was a fluke. I’m gonna guess the latter. All week long I’ve been taking the T downtown with the commuters and students, so the relative desolation was weird and peaceful this morning. It could also have something to do with the Yin yoga session yesterday–a couple other girls and I agreed that, while it’s somewhat uncomfortable to do, it definitely seems to have a stunning effect and would be a great thing to incorporate once a week.
Today is the first day we’ve only had one practice. We began the day with the most fun yoga session we’ve had yet–this is the kind of class I love. Lots of unexpected poses, like Tree Side Planks to Tree chatarunga and rolling from Plow to Crow to chatarunga. We spent the rest of the morning with our teacher looking at each of our chatarungas and making adjustments as necessary.
This afternoon, we had a guest specialist come in and spent about five hours learning about ayurveda, an ancient system of medicine that originated in India. It is the oldest continually used medical system in the world, and works hand-in-hand with yoga: ayurveda is the lifestyle arm and yoga is the spiritual arm. It’s extremely complex (and, obviously, I don’t really know what I’m talking about since I spent all of one afternoon studying about it), but it’s essentially about finding balance and wellness by living according to natural rhythms (eating seasonally, etc.) and according to the needs of your dosha (your “type” in terms of both physical and emotional composition). We ended the day by learning how to give self massage with ayurvedic oils. Fascinating stuff and a nice, chill session for a Saturday.
I was supposed to go to a show tonight, but I had to cancel. The idea of going out on a “school night” is completely beyond me. I can’t imagine anything that would make my life more miserable tomorrow. I’m beginning to realize how good it’s been for me to be busy and exhausted–it’s allowed me to not have to think about some of the more difficult things in my personal life. I’m going to need to work this out in the next few days before this session ends. I know that the real skill here is taking everything we’ve learned the past few days and actually applying it to daily life. That’s the real test here. Ironically, for as anxiety-inducing as teacher training has been, I now find myself anxious about what I’m going to do with all of that wide open time once it’s over.